I only drank out at bars. I wanted to be around people. I wanted to be liked.
Every day I attended dutifully. On my stool on time and engaged in the world around me. Listening for the slightest need for conversation where I could insert myself and hope to find a friend. I could listen as well as I could talk. I could connect as well as be aloof. I was everything I was not when I drank.
Funny thing is... I found only isolation.
Fast forward and here I sit. Sunny and warm. The breeze. Birds singing. Kids playing. My need for conversation no less intense. The dichotomy of my personality no less obvious. I am all that I am because I have not drank.
Funny thing is... I found only isolation.
Unlearning isolation is a unique gift. Sometimes we go back to go forward. I asked today what's the difference in where I was to where I am at?
It's simple really. I never felt the breeze. Never heard the birds... I especially never heard the kids....
