I remember a point about 2 years ago, I was wanting a drink so bad and I was broke until the next day. I really really wanted a drink. I googled drinking cooking wine. :-/ I didn't do it because the rational part of my brain spoke up and said "Really, girl, stop it!"
It doesn't surprise me what people will do to get alcohol. I put myself in dangerous and unhealthy situations if it meant I could drink. For a time period, I only dated to have my drinks paid for. It's a source of some shame for me now. But it's also a source of pride in how far I've come since then.