Originally Posted by
Thatdeliveryguy 
but will report to outpatient today and ask for advice.
You have been asking for and getting advice for well over a year here on SR TDG. And you have gotten a overwhelming amount of it, good advice at that. You've also gotten lots of good advice from your wife, social workers, doctors, ER medics, judges and even your daughter I would imagine.
The problem is that you don't heed any of it. You simply ignore it and try to do things your way. Your way doesn't work - that's been proven over and over and over.
You need intensive treatment, and until you get it nothing will change. I think i've probably said that at least a dozen times to you, probably more - and countless others have as well. I will keep saying it too, and so will others here, until you get it.