Hi, Chilled.
Good for you to come back.
It's late at my part of the world, so I'll put it briefly - this time make a plan and stick to it. Like you can't drive safely if you don't hold your steer wheel, it's hard to succeed in sobriety if you fail to have to be the one in charge.
And keep posting. Whatever happens.
Let it be the first item of your plan:
1. Read and post at SR. Every day.
2.
Best wishes to you.