I don't believe any of us who drank in the mornings ever expected that we would. The booze is insidious that way. I started off as a binger at parties and whatnot. Then binged before anything social (to help ease anxiety, or so I thought). Then drank before anything that gave me anxiety. Then started having anxiety before any activity. Then drank throughout the day to manage that... I work at home, mostly. Then woke up with anxiety. Then started drinking first thing in the morning and throughout the day. Self medication turned to self poison. And I never saw my drowning coming until I was already deep under water.