I didn't make it 2 days
Yesterday night I stood and looked at myself in the bathroom mirror and knew all I had to do was stay inside the flat ten more minutes. But a minute later and I was out the door and made it to the local store around the corner in time to get a big bottle of gin and some lovely sparkling mixers.
I cried as I started drinking it and as usual I don't remember the end of the night.
So instead of waking up feeling clearheaded as I wanted to when I decided to stop drinking for a while, I woke up to a note slipped under my door from a neighbour asking me to turn down the music volume because it was 4am and a series of embarrassing messages I've sent to people including work colleagues.
I'm not sure what I'm going to do.