Originally Posted by
Pouncer 
Djinn,
I have gone through what you describe at least 4 times. Of course it makes me feel ugly. And unwanted. And self-conscious. Do you mean you actually stopped? SA has such a low rate of recovery, lower than alcohol or heroin addition.
We have been in crisis mode at least 4 times. I am tired of it. I am going to take some time to think about it, but right now, I am looking at legal separation.
Well, in all honesty, it's a lot like alcohol. I avoid is as much as humanly possible. Of course I still slip but it doesn't rule my life. And one day I want to put it completely behind me and never look back.