If you really want it, you Can have it. But, noexcuses, it is going to suck for a short time, comparatively. It's universal payback for the years of abuse, right? Shake ,rattle and roll with the punches and on the third day , don't. Don't fall for the AV's lies, stay being a nondrinker . There is help and support out there to get the ball rolling, roll that ball, you Can do it. Rooting for ya.