Originally Posted by
Sikofit 
Go somewhere on the 29th that YOU want to visit--not running back to craziness!
I took your advice Sikofit and I am getting away with some of my best friends to the beach, being near the ocean always seems to soothe me and being around people I love that are really there for me, that's a MUCH better way to spend my time than being exposed to his misery. I am seriously trying my damnest to move on the best way I know how. I have MOMENTS of weakness which are better than being weak all the time, like I used to be. I have great hope that I am moving in the right direction so THANK YOU for the suggestion!