Of not wanting to put up with a heavy drinker.
I've turned into a snoop watching and seeing how much he drinks, going to meetings, not sleeping with him, and analysing our relationship, declaring I have no real love connection with him while he continues like nothing is wrong.
Again maybe just maybe it would be easier to have my head in the sand ..... at least we had great times then.
He travelled away to his newly single friends last nite obviously a lot of alcohol consumed, he said he'd see us in the morn which is cool but he never came home, I called him in arvo and his mate answered saying he's sleeping and think he's got a bug so it's prob best he won't come back home tonight and he'll get him to call me back, which he hasn't. He always calls
I've had fun with kids trying to stop my anxiety of him sleeping with someone etc etc thinking the worse. He never has and I guess I'll never know if he did but I guess I don't sleep with him now so why not?
I just feel quite sad about it all needed to vent
Thanks to you all xxxx