There are a lot of people who care. We really care. We wish we could do more for you.
But there's only so much we can do and right now, what I can do is hope you make it through the night. You're really not in any shape to talk (type) and things have gone beyond the point where talking/typing is what is needed. A call to 911 is what's needed.
I hope you're OK in the morning. I really do.