The response im getting from this is helping me see what i really need to see. Again, i know this ... God, i just havent been able to give up and let go. Not when hes sober ... A coulle weeks ago when he was drinking. I wanted him gone so bad. Now i feel like im turning my back on him and not being loyal. For once ... I need to be selfish and only think about me! Thats a very hard thing for me to do.