I think many are looking for the burning bush experience. Although a few people have this most of us fall into the category of trudging the road to happy destiny. I have to look at most things in sobriety through the rearview mirror. I do not think I am changing at all but then I look backward I know I am not the person I was before. This is especially true of my spirituality.
Through out my recovery I acted like a spoiled child. I want what I want and I want it NOW! For me I practice connecting with my higher power daily. Some days seem to go well others not. In terms of fear I am the cowardly lion ..... I scare myself.
Thank God for the line, "Spiritual progress not spiritual perfection." I try to do what I need to do on a daily basis and hope God will move me down the road.