The greatest 'recovery secret' is that we can decide to quit anytime we like.
That voice telling you you're into ready is juts your addiction wanting more drink, and your fear, not wanting change.
If you weren't ready you would have never sought out SR and signed up here
I had to wait until I was 40 to realise that I could not drink and be the person I wanted to be.
I hope it doesn't take you that long to make a decision dinos.
take care
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