I am parroting here but I can't drink in moderation. I want as much as I can physically take, regardless if I am stumbling, fighting, or crying. I think if you struggle with finding a stopping point, it's best not to start. I understand your curiosity as I have tried the moderation route before; it doesn't work and I lapse back into the abyss. It's hard to cope with alcohol being everywhere and so accessible and a natural accessory to every. damn. social function. It's also hard to tell someone "I don't drink" without them questioning you. But there are costs and benefits to everything in life. I think the costs of trying to be a moderate drinker outweigh the benefits of feeding an addiction.