II lived the "happy drunk" life for many years too. Or at least I thought I did. And then all of a sudden things went south in a hurry. I also tried many different forms of moderation and while a few worked temporarily, I always returned to daily drinking.
And the problem with full blown, every day alcoholic drinking is that it almost always ends in a bad way. The only real variables are how bad it wil get and how soon it will happen. For most of us, the only solution is total abstinence/sobriety. I hope you can learn more about your issue and find a solution.