Hi Tiffany,
Welcome to SR!
You may feel bad now but you did 10 years before relapsing. I'm only on day 7. You have done much better than I ever have and yet I possibly feel better than you right now.
That's odd really isn't it - but it shows what a great position you're actually in. I'd much rather have your recent track record than mine!
:-)
Hope that makes sense!
Best Wishes
C