Your story is inspiring.
Are you saying though that you do nothing to treat the ptsd? I take xanax on ocassion and found that I was actually able to get over my fear of flying by taking one before boarding a plane recently. I used to parachute, I had not fear of planes but then I was landed in a tornado warning with my tow older kids, the plane circled for 45 minutes with people screaming and puking and praying to God. That put me in bad shape and MORE shortly afterwards a passenger plane took a nose dive within a mile from my home in ColoradoSprings in a park. I lived under the flight paths of the airforce training flights and now after reading these posts I can remember how the hair on the back of my neck would stand up everytime they got too close. Also, Colorado Springs was having frequent tornado warnings and the constant high winds would just keep that horrible flight with my kids in the front of my thinking. I spent 10 years there, moving back East was the best thing I could have done.
Now, I am finally feeling like I want to say **** the fear and LIVE again. I truly want to quit drinking though...I wish I could have stopped that 20+ years ago when i gave up pot and cigs!
Writing about it does help. HOW did you quit drinking?