Hi... I'm so glad you are okay and that you came back here. I was really worried about you.
So what set you off this time to go back to drinking after rehab and all? Similar as many times before, or something new and unexpected?
And what's next, what are you going to try now? It clearly seems something is still not enough. I totally get what you are saying that this is not as simple for you as "just do it man, make a new plan and do it"... What sort of things are available for you? Have you considered maybe some sort of sober house living for a while, or something where you could be more supervised and engaged in longer term than what an AA sponsor and yourself are able to do? I know it would be tricky with the limited opportunities where you live, but your life should be first and foremost for a while: before the job, your kids, your house, everything I think?
So sorry, my friend... please don't go back out now.