Originally Posted by Briar

Realizing that does nothing to motivate me to ease up on the wall. I'll need it. I'll probably need booze too, that's just how it is. I'm shifting into survival mode. I'm getting very defensive, which means I'm no angel in support groups. I realize I'm not prepared to cope with work properly, but I don't know whether my doctor is going to release me from disability. I'm trying to prepare in case he does, but obviously it's causing me all manner of dysfunction. I'm doing everything I'm told, which is basically to attend the program, meetings, and therapy, and to be open and honest about what's going on. It's just a very confusing time right now. Hopefully I'll get to a better spot by Monday.