Well, while Lexie may be the voice of rationale and reason, i understand how seeing it in black and white , with your very own eyes, somehow, validates that you are not crazy and imagining this crap.
At some point , we have all been reduced and compromised ourselves and values while living with an active alcoholic. That is what can happen aboard the crazytrain.
So now you know , pink.
I also hope you know, you do not need his permission, blessing, validation, or to hear one more word out of his deceitful, cheating , abusive azz to be happy and go forward in living your own life. It's all you now, don't let your light shine under the bucket, my friend.