Thank you all so much for helping by sharing your stories and perspectives.
I am doing okay right at this moment. I have been able to spend the day with a friend who knows what is going on and who is keeping me "busy." We spent time outside with my dog, ate dinner at a restaurant (I found myself looking away from the drinks menu...I had a ginger ale and that helped my stomach, but I felt sick when I read things like "bottled beers" I guess because I want/don't want it so badly)...
Thanks for the comment about meds. I am on an anti-anxiety medication already, which I suppose is good even though with my drinking, the medicine hardly was working!) Maybe now, it will be able to help me get through the first 1 or 2 days. I'm going to touch base with my doc next week.
I will try to stick around SR a bit tonight, then read, then go to bed, and hopefully will not feel I am "white knuckling" all night long. I can see the value in what many of you say to "keep busy." Sitting or laying around is not good for me... I want to soak up the empty space with booze.
Till later,
MPV