Just in case you are Wondering
Hello everyone,
I have been not around for a while. My husband and my kids been gone on spring break for 2 weeks. My family is coming back Tonight and I have been busy going to my AA meetings and having phone interviews for jobs.
My sponsor have me doing some homework for step 4, about Resentful, Cause Of, and Affect Me. I have been cleaning house of my inventory of myself.
Next week I am hoping I get a call from one of the staffing agencies to call me for another interview for a Eye Doctor. I am just taking it one time a day. I am learning not to get ahead of myself and learning that if I don't get this it isn't met to be.
I celebrated my 60 days last Saturday at a meeting. It was different but I didn't drink that night either.
Couple days ago, I had a test or something. It was pretty awkward situation. Since I been sober for 2 months now I have been notice a lot of things that I wish I never seen. My neighbor moved in about 2-3 months ago, seen cops over there, clothes in the front yard, been told from my daughter that house has abusive and drug related issues but the authority doesn't have any proof of it. In a couple days or so, I was smoking a Cig outside and decided to throw my butt in the trash can, when I did that I heard a kid say hello do you know where my mom is. I looked across the street and seen a 3 year old boy standing btw the front door open wide, with only a diaper on. It was about 10 at night.
I walked away to go back in and saw a car that someone was driving his mom home. I had many things going thru my mind, like where is her other kids, who are the age 13-14, why did she leave him there and wanted mommy. What if he walked out of the house and wonder around the streets. I had to call my husband about it cause it was really bothering me. He told me you cant do nothing about it. You cant control what other people do and only control yourself.
I texted my Sponsor about it too and she said the same thing, unless you see he is hurt or something in that situation. Which he looked fine to me and only wanted to know where his mom was. It must still be on my mind cause it breaks my heart seeing a 2-3 year old being elected. Maybe that isn't what it was, maybe his sisters were there and that's how things work in that family.
The moral of the story is, I just let it go and said a prayer for them and hope I never see anything like that again.
Anyways, I am doing good and I just cant wait to see my family tonight.