Originally Posted by
getright15 
So my reason for drinking last week was because well I told myself...I feel like a beer. The AV in me was just itching at me. Felt that after a month I could handle it get it a shot. Had a few tall ones while relaxing at home. The we celebrated my wife passing her exam to gain entrance into nursing school. Part of the issue is that as alcoholic we love to drink. Those 2 days turned into about a week drinking and misery.
The part I don't get is my wife asks me why I can't just stop.
You didn't lose those 35 days. However, this can be a really good learning experience to support your sobriety. You learned that you need to find other ways of celebrating with your wife. You can also call out your AV next time it says, "but you have x days, you don't have a problem".
The thing is, you are like the rest of us. We can't drink safely either. I like to think of it being analogous to being wired differently. It takes a lot of action and a lot of changes to do things that support our sobriety.