Originally Posted by
Evienne 
Thanks trees, but I don't feel very strong. Was hoping a drink would help but it just released the hurt. No one here to help me. Never was. Everyone I trusted turned out to be, well, not that. My family is not safe. But I have no one else.
I do appreciate it and will try to remember it. I know I will dry my tears just in time to put on the show they want to see.
Funerals are for the living, not the dead. Mourn him but take a long, hard look and think it over before going to the funeral. As Dee said you can mourn in your own way, honor him in your own way. But he's dead and you are alive. You need to make good choices to keep it that way.
You probably have a reservoir of strength inside you that you're unaware of now. Stay the course! You will okay, Evienne.
