When i had the first drink all bets were off as to what would happen .
Once in a blue moon i'd be the reasonable drinker but more often than not i drank until i blacked out and the longest one of those i had was from a thursday till monday .
Once i've had one drink all bets are off so the only reasonable thing i could do was to not have any drink .
35 days was a good run , no one can take it away from you .
Seems to me like you've got some more to do as to how to handle sobriety, AA and church sound like as good a place to start as any
Keep on ,
m