I read some of the bottoms other people have and some are much worse than me. I know I'm not supposed to compare bottoms, but my AV uses this as an excuse to tell me I don't really have a problem. I'm not like you all. Yet I'm fixated on alcohol. I think about it at odd times. And I definately drink unhealthy amounts. I am writing this here because it has become a stumbling block for me achieving any substantial string of sober days.