Thank you guys so much for your replies. I guess what silly is that I was able to not drink alcohol for a full year. After that year I thought I could handle it. And I was actually able too but then St.Patrick's day happened whichess ended with me falling asleep at a bar for 5 hours. Ugh. But I was able to go out and have 3 beers and go home with no desire to drink anymore. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I don't know of I'm a alcoholic or because of the stress and depression I'm going though I'm abusing alcohol...