Messed up
How did everything go so wrong? I felt so positive and strong that I wasn't going to go back and now I feel like I've ruined everything after only 5 days. I met up with a friend from way back before I did drugs and thought it was the perfect opportunity to socialise with a couple of drinks and not going back as it was someone I assumed would not be into it. Anyway this was obviously not the case as the conversation went on and after my friend missed their train I said they could stay at mine. I'd been great all evening, happy just having a few drinks and not feeling I needed coke. I was so proud of myself. But when they came back it all went wrong and when it was there on the table I didn't say no. I feel like I've ruined all my hard work and I'm back to square one. So demoralised.