Thank you all!! As far as programs: I started my journey by visiting Face It Together. I met with an amazing recovery coach who advised me to join A.A. I was not happy with that advice as you can imagine but it was the best advice I've ever received. Face It Together called me every other day during my first month (at my request) and they were my lifeline. So between going to my A.A. meeting weekly and reading the forums here.... It's working for me!!!! Things are happening now in my life that I didn't think possible!