Originally Posted by
XIIIXXIXXVI 
I need to sit and come up with a clear plan because yesterday proved that this is not going to be easy at all. I literally felt depressed at one point and wrote out my options - drinking or not drinking - and the potential consequences of each but I still decided to drink. It seems so much harder this time than last time because I've gotten in the habit of drinking when I'm bored, stressed, etc. Not to mention, a new prescription I've started taking makes me feel like I've done an eightball of blow and drinking seems to take that edge off somewhat. I'm just dealing with and trying to make changes to a lot and it feels very overwhelming knowing that I won't be able to lean on my usual crutch, alcohol. >.<
Bri
Perhaps you could start with your doctor? Maybe the prescription you were given is not correct and could be tweaked. He/She may also have some valuable insight into getting sober, you'd be surprised how often people go to their doctors about alcoholism...it's nothing to be ashamed of and they have seen it all.
Maybe another thing you could try would be some face to face support like a meeting or a drug/alcohol counselor. Physically being around those who have the same problem or understand the problem can be very helpful.