Welcome back Thanos
Well, drinking sucks. I have had my fill of drinking today and it is not satisfying. It makes me feel gross. I can't think straight. My wife knew when she smelled me coming home and the disappointment I saw there was like a dagger.
The good time I thought I deserved was just a delusion. Drinking always leads to this hollow terrible place. I've taken this class a thousand times.
I really don't know how to make tomorrow my last day one.
There's the two sides of the battle right there.
You can stop drinking right now - if you're prepared to commit to whatever it takes, Thanos.
AA or some other meeting based group, Dr, Counsellor, inpatient or outpatient rehab, daily SR....
You just have to commit to change and pick your approach.
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