Drinking ... It's as unsatisfying as I expected
Well ... I drank today. I have been going downhill for a long time. I would have couple of days, then think, "See, what were you worried about?" And at the same time, "How much stress can one person deal with? Time for some 'relief'"!
Well, drinking sucks. I have had my fill of drinking today and it is not satisfying. It makes me feel gross. I can't think straight. My wife knew when she smelled me coming home and the disappointment I saw there was like a dagger.
The good time I thought I deserved was just a delusion. Drinking always leads to this hollow terrible place. I've taken this class a thousand times.
I'm hoping I can graudate and move on to a better way of being, long term. Right now I just feel gross and can't wait for the alcohol to be out of my system. UGGGGGHHH