Thank you all
Thank you for the responses, this forum has been a Godsend in helping me to learn and see that I am not wrong for feeling the way I do and that I am not the only one with these circumstances. It is just so amazingly difficult to realize that I may need to say good bye to someone I love in order to do what's best for me. My other issue is that I do understand it is a disease but at some point there is a choice the A has to make... get help to stop hurting the one's you love, or remain in denial and lose everything. Because of that, I feel as though I am competeing for her love, and unfortunately losing to the alcohol.
Thanks again, and God bless everyone out there that is hurting and still trying to help others through this forum.