Me too... I haven't even voiced it to my husband yet, I was going to but I knew he wouldn't believe me so I'm unusually quiet today.
I'm reading a lot on here. Are you doing it on your own? I am so far but there is an AA meeting tonight 10 miles away that I went to once 2 years ago. Might go and just sit and listen...
Feeling really shell shocked and subdued...
Good luck x