welcome back, Bri.
so many threads on these boards start in such a similar vein to yours: i was doing okay, had one or two but kept it in check and didn't consider it a big deal or anything of much importance and now wow here i am after a few horrific weeks...
it seems most of us really can't learn from others' experiences...
took me years and years to learn from my own experience enough to stop denying it.
sigh.
knowing this: my inability to control or handle alcohol. is the number one stepping stone.
good to see you here.