And I am not successful at being sober cause I keep getting dragged to 2-3 day rave party outings cause I don't want my wife to go alone... or I feel ashamed to not drink with people I have been working with when we are traveling and doing 20 hour shifts. I was always known for being a drinker and fun to hang out with at work. The last time I relapsed after a very long time without booze I had arrived on a job site and everyone was like come to the bar. Actually that happened the last few times I had given up booze and was out of state without my medical marijuana. The good news is as of next week I will no longer have the same job and will not have to travel anymore.