You want to quit the cycle? Then quit this:
Originally Posted by
Eliasson 
I'll feel awful all day so won't have a problem not drinking tonight. Tomorrow will be a different story. I'll wake up feeling better, and I'll start talking myself out of sobriety. I'll be pretty sure I can handle just a couple drinks maybe two nights a week? A completely sober life is terrifying...
This is you giving yourself permission to drink. You, bailing out on your decision to get sober. You can't go two days because on the second day you tell yourself it's okay to drink.
Start telling yourself you've stopped drinking and stick with it.
And I think the idea of a meeting is a good one. Pick up some numbers. Call them when the voice in your head starts convincing you to drink.