had to fight off a "craving" this afternoon...
I've been sober sinch March 15th. Everything has been going really great. Earlier this week I actually forgot about drinking altogether. I've been focusing on all sorts of other projects latley.
Anyway, just about as I was leaving work today, a couple co-workers started talking about drinking tonight. Getting smashed. For whatever reason, I said I might too. I don't know why I said that. I had no plans to drink. It might have been a subliminal thought of social acceptance to say it. It was a fleeting thought and I finished my work and headed home. Did some house stuff for a couple hours, and just really couldn't shake the feeling of going out and grabbing an 18 pack. It was odd. Initially I didn't think about anything past those first 3 or 4 beers. This whole thought only lasted maybe a couple minutes. And I obviously didn't act on it. But it was there. I think it was me trying to reward myself for the last 2+ weeks of behaving.
Have a good night folks.