Okay last night I posted on the April boards for some reason. I guess the reason was I needed some guidance last night, my anxiety was threw the roof and I felt just awful. So I thought I was posting in March and I wasn't. Oh well. Anyway I am rambling. So last night when I posted I was trying to avoid drinking. I had the bug so bad and my husband was not helping me at all. Because he wanted to drink as well. So you can guess what happened. I drank... a lot! I felt awful last night. I drank so much I puked. Then this morning was horrid. I was so mad at myself, anxious, yucky feeling. I just see all my dreams dissolving right in front of me because of stupid alcohol. Anyway so back on the wagon. I do want o quit. I have to quit. Wish me luck. I need it.