Originally Posted by
hiimbryan1 
I fell off the band wagon and feel like a peace of crap
I wish I could go out with friends and just drink 1-2... Why do I end up getting smashed
Welcome back hiimbryan
It's probably the single greatest wish all alcoholics express that they could drink just one or two and be satisfied.
I dunno about you, but I never drank one or two.
I always drank to get smashed.
Realising that and accepting it was a real game changing for me and helped me accept the need for change in my life and move on to fully embracing recovery.
I have a very full social life now - and I remember it all with no embarrassments illness of unexplained injuries.
I hope you'll give recovery a go hiimbryan - give yourself a chance to work through that difficult transition stage and see what last recovery has to offer
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