I have fantastic people surrounding me. The night she passed I was taken out by 6 of my closest friends and laughed more than I probably should have. I have offers to go out, offers to stay in, offers to be left alone. I have wonderful people who check in on me frequently. I have three fluffy wonderful dogs to snuggle with.
I just got a promotion to a job I adore, I'm paying off debt I didn't think I would be able to get to, and a chronic pain issue I have had for 3 years is actually clearing up. My life is going great and I'm well supported, I have battled depression my whole life and for it to rear its head after this isn't shocking, but frustrating. My grandmother was 95 and battled with those issues, she also had emphysema and while 10 years ago she would go to the gym every day, by now she couldn't even walk down her steps. Her mind was starting to fail also but I believe she was with it enough to know.
Thanks Kialua.