Welcome. I am so glad you are here.
I had to give it all up to gain my sobriety.
Today I clean houses. I have some serious issues coming up, but still-I'm not using/drinking. It took me a long time to feel like I could do anything-I worked for a call center that did political surveys for the first few months of my sobriety. It really was low stress job for me. There was no way I could have done what I'm doing now. For me-it took what it took.
The biggest goal was to get and stay clean and sober. Somehow the rest, it got better. I still gave away my kids and my Ex but I'm slowly getting better. I never thought I'd be running my own business!
I was willing to go to any lengths.
You may not walk away with the same job, but maybe you can put some time between yourself and that last hit. You'll feel better slowly, but you may feel like crap for awhile. I found a Pdoc and an antidepressant. It's not ideal but it keeps me clean and sober.
I get some of my medical care from the VA-whenever I am feeling sorry for myself-I go down and sit in their atrium. It's a wake up call.