This "relationship" you have with this A is not a healthy one. You may love him but that does not mean you are IN LOVE with him. Make sense? You care about him, good enough, but there are tons of red flags.
I can only echo what other posters have said, the two of you should stop trying to control each other. Unless you want to continue to live like this it is best you move on. Possibly go no contact. What is important is you do what is best for YOU, not him. Because as I see it, this is not a relationship at all.
Sorry hon, just my two cents.