It's frustrating man in the sense that its the first time I have ever tried to interact with the system on any level. And its just not working out, at all.
I was mega depressed 7 years ago so I was just walked through the process with my head in the sand and agreed to terms which were really not suitable for me.
The judge pushed me back towards my family in other words. I realized along time ago that I had no chance of happiness ever unless away from them (sorry but).
I've been in bed since Friday save for a few hours yesterday. Only realized today that I had barely eat anything. Um yeah man, tried to get her on the phone today but...