I will work on my exit. I'm not fearless. I am numb. Six months ago I slapped him once, when he told me our marriage was not even real. I wrote about it here, I felt horrible for doing that. I told him after that was DV and that I could go to jail, and he said that "was nothing, happens all the time with others."
I told him my marriage was sacred to me.
Last night he repeated the same insult, being married in "some courthouse." Well that's where people marry where I am from. I know for sure HE WANTED me to get physical. Why, thanks God, I will never find out.
He will probably refuse signing that tax return and filing. He gets passive like that. Really I am the one doing everything. And maybe the attorney scares him.
But I'll be ready and will not fall again.