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healthyagain Thanks, searching peace, and big hugs to you. I am 35 but am afraid of relationships. It will take lots of time for me to open up and start trusting again. You see, everything I told him, my secrets (no dirty past, but intimate vulnerable stuff), he is turning against me. The point is, I love my mom with all my heart although she was mean form time to time, but she was strict, and we had lots of misunderstandings, and this man has no right bringing these things up because if I could bring my mom back, if I could hug her, and tell her how much I missed her for the past 13 years, I would do absolutely EVERYTHING. That is one thing. Second, I know he says this to be mean, to hurt me, and it did work. And the reason I pulled the paper out was to prevent further insults, and that worked too. For the past few months, every time he did something mean, I would do something to make my move easier (opened a bank account, got a new phone number and cell phone, found an attorney, started packing my clothes, started checking out apartments, etc.) A few days ago, I posted a new thread asking if he were oblivious. I guess I got the answer this evening. I am not accused of an affair, I am accused of at least two. I am sleeping with the whole block, apparently. So he is not oblivious, he knows something's cooking, but it is hard for him to accept Now that I think about it, I am very happy I told him what I did. And I absolutely, in no way on earth am planning to stay. I am going to get some sleep now. Tomorrow is a new day.