Originally Posted by
StellaPolaris 
I would really like to turn my addictive behaviour from a negative to a positive, if that makes sense.
Yeah, get "addicted" to your recovery. Expend as much energy on your recovery as you did to support those negative behaviors.
I see a lot of posts here from people who say they don't want recovery to dominate their life, don't want sobriety to "take over." Not many of them get clean or sober. They were blind to the dominance their addiction held over them, but want to be free of such from their recovery. Doesn't work that way, not in the beginning.