Joie,
Our stories are somewhat similar as I believe a lot of ours are. You have given me so much strength the past few weeks. My heart aches for you as you had to bury them both.
Thank you for your kind words and your support. I cannot thank you enough.
I will get through this... Yes, I deserve someone who gives back, not takes. I am 46 years old and I wasted 19 years on the first marriage, although not an addict, and the past 2 with the addict. I am the only one who can change me.