Thank you so much to everyone for responding to me. I'm scared and crying and don't know what the future holds. Thank you especially Dee for ALWAYS being there through my years of trying to get sober and never giving up on me. All of you here truly give hope where I think there is none. I've tried hard for a long time. The place I always come back to is SR. Really the only hope I hold for a better future is because of the encouragement and support you give me. My hope is to one day be healthy enough to be supportive of others instead of just so needy. For now I'd love to just get sober and stay sober. Thank you